COFFEE.

Laura Hope Coffee Shop

Image © : Laura Hope

                The need for caffeine fuelled me to my nearest coffee shop, my thinned morning energy depleted as I’d made it to the counter just in time to order a tall cup of my favourite roast. I’d cooped myself up in the flat for the first few days of annual leave, binging on all of the shows I’d vowed to my colleagues I’d never watch in a million years on Netflix.

                I’d come out to welcome the fresh air and hoped to discover the motivation to do something else this week other than waste minutes of my life in front of the box – not that there was anything wrong with that mind, but I’d always scathed myself for it. The worker bee in me loathed having time off in the first place, I hated it even more if I’d felt I’d wasted my time. But hey, maybe a bit of self-care was exactly the thing I was in desperate need of.

                 I thanked the jovial barista and headed into the cosiest nook I could find. Armed with a new thriller, my debit card – very stupidly – as my bookmark, I parked myself down with my coffee and faced out to the mild buzz that it offered. One that was needed if I was due to retain any of this plot.

                Inhaling deeply, I ran a hand through my loose curls, performing the usual wince as my index finger’s ring had gotten stuck in the pesky knots. It had almost become ritualistic of me to continue; one with common sense would have taken the ring off or simply brushed their hair better. For someone who’d given themselves such a hard time about taking time off and priding herself on being said worker bee, you’d have thought I’d have a bit more initiative regarding life’s minutiae. I should add ‘give self hair mask treatment’ to the self-care list I’d been penning from counter to seat.

                As I sipped and, hopelessly, tried to take in the first few lines of a fresh book, I stopped and gave into the want to people watch. It appeared quiet for a morning; there was only myself and four other patrons in here. Neo-Soul tunes percussed delicately around light conversation between a cheery guy with perfectly quaffed hair, sharing a joke with another barista as he’d taken a break from his laptop. His dimples deepened as their melodic laughter filled the air. I couldn’t help but smile a little myself, even if the topic to hand was a little out of earshot from being sat directly under a speaker.

                My attention should have been back with myself and my own being, but I took in another patron. A woman sat on a barstool with her back to the brick wall, facing diagonally as she gazed out of the window. The morning’s rays glistened delicately on her features, highlighting her cheekbones. I pondered as to what she could have been thinking about; she’d held her sit-in cup close to her lips, almost as if I could see the cogs in her mind turning. Her attention hadn’t been turned to anything in particular, making me believe that she was mulling something over with a sense of emotion.

                From what I could see she didn’t have anything with her, no work to do that was visible like the first person I’d first cast my gaze to. I didn’t know her from adam, but she’d struck me as an artist. I could imagine her stood at the foot of a canvas that was twice the size of her. I’d watched paint splodges and strokes appear on her forest green shirt in a multitude of colours, a thin paintbrush slid through her black curls, appearing on either side of her low bun. As soon as I’d blinked, they’d vanished and she was back to how I’d found her.

                A ping from a sharply dressed gentleman in a suit and stone mac stole my attention. He looked perturbed as he looked down at his glowing screen after he’d thanked staff behind the counter for his, I presumed, breakfast. He’d held a slight pout, illustrating mild disappointment, but I could be wrong of course. Could be a work problem, a cancelled plan – something a mate might have tagged him in and it wasn’t the right choice for this time of the morning. He smiled at me as he’d caught my eye, one I reciprocated automatically, taking in his beautiful features from my little creeping corner. He clicked his phone locked, put it in his pocket and flew out the door.

                Another chap in black stood up, taking a final swig of his cup and came to get rid of his litter adjacent to me. He brooded mystery; he could have passed for a secret agent, but surely they’d have been dressed far more inconspicuously than this? I think my love for American Crime Dramas was interfering with my poor character assassination. His built frame towered above me. I took in his features just like everyone else, except I had more of a front row seat. I noticed the glint from the spotlights to his rich, chocolate eyes. I noticed the salt seasoned through his peppered beard, his hair tousled to perfection, the sandalwood in his aftershave sauntered my way. Although he’d stopped, the scent continued to dance around me.

                As much as he exuded an undeniable confidence, purely through the way he carried himself, my thoughts mirrored those of the lady sat in the window. There was something running through this chap’s mind. His brow wasn’t furrowed through concentration for ensuring that his litter was being recycled in the right receptacles, it was through anguish. I refrained from asking him if he was alright. I should have done I guess, but I feared that I would be tarnished as the weirdo staring at all the customers around me for a little too long, trying to decipher everyone’s life whilst I should have been focused on my own.

                With a wipe down of what he’d spilt, he was gone with a few clicks of his expensive brogues and a ‘cheers mate’ to the only visible barista behind the display of fresh Brownies, Muffins and Pains Au Chocolat, making me kick myself that I didn’t immediately get one of each when I’d walked in. There was always tomorrow.

                I sipped away again at my drink; I wondered if any of them had done the same to me? What was the blond girl in the blush sweatshirt doing here this early with no visible place to be? What’s she reading? And why the bloody hell is she using her bank card as a bookmark? – To be fair, I needed to keep asking myself that question, not the best plan I’ve ever had.

                It had gotten me thinking about communication though; what would have happened if we’d all randomly started talking to one another? Should I have introduced myself to the other woman? Should I have made a bold move to the guy in the mac and asked him for his number? An impulse thing which was now too late, to be honest, the thought just made me bottle it anyway.

                The idea of raw, open contact made me feel shy, but the ambitious side of me wants to throw caution to the wind and just go for it.

                I got up with a deep breath, slid my card into one of the front pockets in my jeans (for the best, really) and walked over to the window a little slower than I would have done if I’d have left altogether.

                ‘Hi, sorry,’ I said with a shake to my voice, a combination of nerves and a waiting conversation ready in my throat. ‘Do you mind if I sit with you? It’s a bit dark over there.’ I stood hopeful, gently shaking my book in view.

                ‘Course not!’ she exclaimed, my fears of her battling with something earlier effervesced upon hearing the excited rasp in her voice.

                ‘Thank you. I’m Liv.’

                ‘Valentina.’ She smiled, offering me a hand to shake. ‘So, Liv,’ she pauses as she sits to face me a little more, very present, as am I, of what her next utterance will be. ‘What are you reading?’


 

The other day, I’d stumbled across the above image on Laura Hope’s Twitter page. I adore her art style and immediately felt myself drawn to the image in particular. It struck a chord with me and, much like Liv, I wondered who these people in the image were and who they could be. It quickly prompted me to write this small piece of fiction, which I hope you enjoyed!

So I must say a HUGE thank you to Laura for the inspiration; for a while I have been wanting to get back to my latest first draft and haven’t felt all that inspired to. The words fell into my lap for this visual aid and I’m hoping that with a re-read of some of the content for book four, I’ll be able to continue.

For more information about Laura Hope, her incredible work and projects, and also how to reach her, please visit the links below. Once again, a massive thank you to her for allowing me to use her stunning work for this piece of fiction.

Website – Laura Hope Illustration

Instagram – @laurahopeillustration

Twitter – @laurahopeillo

Oxford Doodle Club Information – oxforddoodleclub.com

Found.

There were no words; my apartment was wrapped with silence. Nothing needed to be said. I stared at him as we lay covered only with sheets, taking in his exquisite features as candlelight bounced around us.

I ran my finger along his jawline, always surprised that I never drew blood with the sharpness that it exhibited. He caught my palm and kissed my finger tip, smiling at my repeated motion. I had a habit of doing that; I enjoyed his response. Especially as his tremendous eyes shimmered at me every single time I did it.

We were a couple of misfits. I guess we’d just got lucky in finding each other.

I worked at the city library; it was vast, both filled with truths and weaved with fictional tales. It was the only place I’d somewhat felt comfortable in, a place I could work and not feel so claustrophobic with bodies. The rare occasion that there were a few too many people, I could slip down aisle after aisle and when asked, I could easily lie and say that I was re-alphabetising.

There was an instance where I’d felt stifled and escaped, only to find him standing there, softly thumbing through a Tolstoy. I’d been far too taken aback to recall which of his works it was.

It felt instantaneous between us; I found him mesmerising to look at, I still had. We stood in silence, drinking one another in. He didn’t shift from my gaze, nor was he perturbed about my intrigue towards him.

The introductions took us a moment to get out. I felt uncomfortable in the simplest walks of life, let alone when I’d so openly studied a stranger for what felt as if hours had passed. Taking in his rich, sapphire eyes had dumbfounded me; I’d never seen such beauty in a man before.

He held out his hand once he’d introduced himself awkwardly, I felt a pull of reluctance, but grabbed it. An alien feat for myself as I rarely felt okay with being within two feet of someone, let alone even the gentlest of touches. That day, something was different.

For the next few weeks he came in every day as I worked, willingly helping me carry heavy encyclopaedias and towers of books, all to simply go back to their rightful homes. We talked about our favourite books and meandered through the aisles with comfortable silences.

A lot of ground was still to cover, yet I looked at him knowing that I could tell him my truths, my hang ups and anxieties.

We’d plucked up the courage to exchange numbers; I guess we’d grown tired of idly conversing over hardbacks. The same evening, my cell rang.

‘Uh hi,’ he paused. ‘It’s me.’ I knew from caller ID, but I would have known that deceptively deep voice from that sweet face, anywhere.

‘Hi,’ I smiled, waiting for more to follow.

‘I know it’s late, but do you want to grab a coffee or something?’

                I knew it had taken him a lot to ask me that. Of course, I said yes; even past one in the morning. I remembered being up thinking about him anyway.

We slovenly walked around my neighbourhood, Styrofoam cups in hand, thumping at one another’s walls with lump hammers, hearing the bricks and mortar crumble with each step and utterance made. We kissed that same night, not regretting a typically ‘stupid’ decision thereafter as we fumbled to my apartment.

I smiled back in the present, revisiting those still-fresh memories whilst looking at the main content, a work of art. He captivated me.

‘What?’ He smiled, his voice breaking through an intended whisper.

‘Nothing.’

He combatted my loneliness, my sadness and my vulnerability. Of course, I wasn’t fixed, yet he’d corked the things that affected me the most. The solitude most welcomed, I loathed. The buzz of silence was deafening to me, the thrum of a brain with constant whirrs of negativity now evaporated as I looked at him.

We were misfits to society. We were the people that made others feel uncomfortable for not slotting into their idea of acceptable.

We fit, however. We’d found the pieces that fit.